g00dbye.

Friday, May 12, 2006

12:47 AM

there's something realli wrong wif me..blahh..i jus totally lost that energy level i always had..i realli think i'm damn different..last time..no matter how tired i was..i would still look happy..cheerful..energetic.now..even if i'm not tired..i'll jus be like half dead..i realli duno y..but i'm VERY sure itz not cuz of council..i think itz jus cuz i've been keeping lotsa things to myself..i mean..there's not much pple hu are realli willing to listen in this world..read a quote tht goes sth like 'dun share ur troubles wif other pple cuz 10% pretend to listen..10% dun care after listening..the rest are happy tht you are having the problem..' haha..i duno..frens mite always say i'll always be here for u and listen to u..but is tht the real case?i mean i dun deny tht i dun say tht to my frens..but jus think carefully..how many pple would realli sit down and listen and help u solve ur probs??jus how many?i dun noe..i've been feeling real lousy..and like wad mr yeo said..u always take ur loved ones for granted..i think so..my parents have been complaining bout the way i speak..itz like i will raise my voice a lil sometimes when they ask a bit more stuff..blahh..i realli feel bad cuz i'm not aware tht i m doing it la!okayy..this is getting real bad..i'm realli damn lost in my world now..guess pple mite tink i m crazee cuz in skl i m like so lame and crappy and stuff..but tht's jus the side of me tht i want pple to noe me as..i mean hu the hell would wanna make frens wif me if i were to show how i realli feel everyday..i think in tht case..i would never be seen smiling..omg!i somehow cant believe i'm saying all these things here..but itz like..i tink there's a limit to everything..and i think i reaching my limit..blahh..there's jus too many things for me to worry about..I MISS MY FRENS...:((..i jus hope i'll be able to look at things on the brighter side and realli cheer up a lot..blahh...someone get me out of all these crap please................