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Thursday, May 11, 2006

4:55 PM

hmm..okay..read my last entry..haha..realised it was like in APRIL?!?!niwae..manymany things happened these few days when i din blog.of course there was council camp..a camp tht made me learn a lot about myself and others..hmm..altho i was like almost dying of puking all i ate and drank?ahha..to the extent cunzheng and siti and jinfa were like asking me to stop if i cant take it..hmm..den there was the internal elections for exco..LESTER'S the president.haha..yea..and song's bdae and jinhan's bdae jus passed..we had a small suprise celebration for them..oh..somewhere in this week..the 4 flowers acted anrgy with each other to scare us..haha..LOSERS la!but damn funny..haha..tink they were most prob too bored..can u believe 4 16 to 17 year old guys sitting at the stairs isolating themselves from us..jus to plan how they shud b angry with each other?!?!?!ahha..okayy..niwae...for council..there's so much to do..i'm in CCACO..haha..the secretary of CCACO..haha..now currently we are planning for invest..and preparing ourselves to cheer for the volleyball girls finals...

okay wadeva..there's jus so much..lauma is yet again hospitalised..i jus cant take it..and studies wise..haha..ALL THE BEST GERM!yea..haf been practically FAILING EVERYTHING???itz not tht i din study..i jus wanna make a comment..so wad if i m from tkgs?HELLO!!it doesnt mean every tkgian MUST be the best or wadeva..i mean..wad the f*ck..i realli studied..I SWEAR..i'm jus born with brains not enuff to absorb so much things can?so please stop bring my school into the picture..my life as of today has got nothing to do wif TKGS anymore..pls do not compare k!!!idiot..and i realli duno wad to do..the oni thing i can think of is quit skl..i'm jus not the kind to study..but i'm jus forced..i mean..even however much i wanna go poly..my parents wouldn't allow altho they say they will..i jus noe it..blahh

den hmm..i duno..jus damn pissed off with myself my results my health and practically everything..perhaps cuz of this..i'm being damn sensitive..i duno..itz like..i noe i've got my frens in 0603..but am i realli treated as a true fren?sometimes i realli wonder where i stand..am i realli on that clique?or are pple jus accepting me for the sake of accepting me?i realli duno..i m not trying to personal attack anyone in particular here..itz jus my thots and i mean i wun ever say it out in front of my frens..yea wadeva..hmm..den there's oso the OG2 pple..those hu are constantly asking me why i m not joining them..i realli duno..i'm jus lost..rite now..all i care is tht i recover from all those headaches and stuff..and get back on track for my studies..i'm not saying all of u are not important to me..argh..i duno wad m i saying..i'm jus damn pissed..blahh..and itz realli hard for me to trust everyone jus like tht..blahh..realli feel damn blah now..and i miss kimmie zhaoey and val..*crys*..can someone jus pick me up and help me in this journey?cuz i think i m sinking..deeper and deeper..and i alreadi dun haf the strength to stand up myself..blahh