g00dbye.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

10:15 PM

mixed feelings..blah..2dae’s kinda a like I duno..dae filled with emotions..i duno whether issit jus me or wad..everytime I blog..i’ll somehow haf these weird feeling..like a feeling I cant explain.and it kinda sucks.
went uncle’s hse to celebrate my gram’s bdae..was hooked on to the com..kinda regretted it..ok..nvm..tokked to calister..i really duno wad to do now..i am lost in my own world..blah..okay..i seriously regretted being on the com the whole dae..shud haf spent more time with my cousin..i duno..i jus felt so OMG wad shud I do when she held my hand..damn touched when she was able to ans..seeing her cry..although it hurts me..but I m glad shez able to show how she feels..i guess itz like wad tingli said..shez aware of her condition but unable to express it..wahh..i can take it..if I had the time..if I had the choice..i would actually stop going out..stop everything I m doing just to b by her side.I M SERIOUS.and get to know her beta.i believe in her..she’ll be like all of us one day.
den after tht went town met sl ky justina and kevin..gave ky the lamp..hope hez happie now..haha..yea..den went to eat dingtaifeng..haha..yea..den walked ard..den came back..
asked mum wad happened to my cousin after I left..yea..she had fits again..haiz..damn sad..how I wish I could b by her side all the while……

I duno why..there’s just this tinge of guilt in me still…but no matter wad happens..i’ll always be there for u.