g00dbye.

Monday, March 06, 2006

9:05 AM

what’s wrong with the mood of everyone recently??I mean everyone around me jus seems to be sad in some way or other..not that I m not..but I really hope I can be the one putting a smile on all their faces tho…
tj?ny?..i jus cant picture myself going into tj..not seeing shuenlin waiting at the gate for me..not seeing kaiyang and kevin standing at the row next to my class..not seeing shuenlin kaiyang kevin at the canteen asking me to pangseh my ct to sit wif them..not seeing the few of them on the sofa in my house slacking after school..and worst still..i dun want to be in tj and posted to this class..not being able to hear the ever disgusting burps..not being able to hear the ‘haah’s..not being able to hear sihui laugh her head off..not being able to see dengli using her fone to check her hair..not seeing Dickson being forced to look up and say ‘the sky is falling’..not seeing wenzhong running away from ah fat..not seeing jingsheng jiaheng and ah fat fighting..although at tht point of time i might sae they’re childish..lame or wadeva..but I noe if ever I leave ny..i would miss all these pple like crazee..omg..mum’s asking me to go down to tj myself tml..but I refused..i jus dun wanna face all these..i believe if I m fated to b in tj..they will call me..so yupp..i shall jus sit here and let them decide my fate..while I enjoy my time in ny..i really dun want Wednesday to like be like a sad dae..gg to cheena on Thursday..i dun wanna receive sudden news tht tj accepted me..and din haf the chance to bid a proper goodbye to the ny pple..i duno..but I think I WILL STAY IN NY!so yea..i dun think tj would want me anyway..i really duno..not as if I have a choice..so I shall jus not give a damn..and let them decide for me..
blahh..so many of my frens are waiting for their appeal results..and most of them are like quite affected by this whole thing..seeing them being so helpless kinda makes me sad..blah..so..to kim trixie and kevin..if by any chance u r reading this..i jus wanna say that I really hope the three of yoo can get to where u all wanna be..i really wish you all the best for ur appeals(I give all my luck to you)..i dun wanna see you all in this state..being real lost and all..how I wish I could do something to help..i’m sorry I m not of much help..but jus wanna say..no matter how the results turn out..i hope u’ll move on yea?I wanna see the usual you..yea..no matter wad..i’ll always be here for u all yea?cheer up dudes!smile for my sake k??love ya all!C=