Sunday, February 12, 2006
12:26 AM
hmm..jus came back from grandma's place..heard tht my aunt's fish noodle stall got interviewed by straits times!!!haha..okie..shall blog bout the scariest of my life ever since i was born..which is oso yesterday..haha..(urgh!there's this irritating cat meowing outside my window!)..
okayy..the day b4 the results were released..went out wif the OG to haf a 'last dinner' thing?haha..it wasnt as fun or enjoyable as the rest of those 'outings'..i duno y..i dun tink itz cuz the pple were troubled by the fact tht the results r cumin out..but den agn yea..it was jus like everyone meet..eat..den go home..at first din realli tink much of the result thing..till tht kevin like put his hand out..looked at me n shuenlin den said 'good luck' with this damn serious look on his face..at tht moment..i was like 'OH SHIT!' hahah..yea..wadeva..den was damn bothered by the whole damn thing..din realli sleep very well tht nite..had weird dreams..
YESTERDAY..the beeg day..woke up damn early tho i slept at like 1+..den banged on the piano..den prepared myself to meet zhaoey at ps..on the way there i was tinking bout many things..den reached ps..walked ard wif zhaoey..den we went pp to meet pple..saw a lotta pple there..den after tht went tk..the whole mood there sucked..i duno.everyone was outside the hall..hugging each other?itz like the typical scenario for the end of the world?yea..den duno why..but when u hugged val..jus felt like crying..VAL I MISS YOO!!!!yea..den offed my phone so as not to b disturbed by those pple trying to call or msg me..den wad the toot..when we went into the hall..the atmosphere was damn i duno..jus not rite..den pple were all so worried..was holding melody's hand throughout la!den there was this super long briefing..den hey showed the statistics for our cohort..we did quite well i guess..but i din noe whether i shud cheer or not..den it was time to get our results..yea..walked to the front..ms yeo gave this stern look..i took the slip..n walked back to my seat to wait for melody..den after i counted my L1R5..yea..jus kept quiet n looked down..din do anything..i duno..i jus hate this whole feeling la..den started seeing pple ard me crying..went over to them..din tok much..jus sat beside them..(was quite proud of my amaths and chem..cuz i slogged my life for it..and did quite ok..but damn sad for mep..ok wadeva..)..den i took my fone n msged my mum..den a whole lot of msgs came in..haha..one was from shuenlin..when i received her msg..i was kinda relieved..cuz the dae b4 we were telling each other if either of us din msg each other means we din do well..so since she msged me..means she did quite well..DEN..got this msg from kevin..haha..he said he din do well and wanna die..haha..so i called him..den he nv pick up the fone la!!!haha..but obviously i f=din tink he was dead..haha..den i msged him to ask him to call me..haha..den he ask me to write his will..haha..to give me everything!hahaha..thanks brudder!hahahahahah..yea..niwae..msged joyce jiejie and mr ng..i realli wanna thank them from bottom of my hearts..they're the most passionate teachers i've ever met la!joyce jiejie came out in the new paper..yea..ohh..den mr ng was like saying 'oh man!thank you so much germaine!' i was damn touched la!i mean he is thanking me when like i got where i am bcuz of him?!?!i m realli touched la..yea..hmm..den niwae..met kaiyang shuenlin huiyen kevin cheryl justina..den we went to eat dingtaifeng..yea..wanted to go kbox..but damn ex..so went pool..and they came my hse..haha..stayed till 2+..haha..yupp..
den now..i m damn stressed..i duno how to choose my skls..(ohh kaiyang..haha..thanks for the advise..haha..ya la!tht kevin!4eva using reverse psychology on me!haha)..yea..i m realli damn stressed la!part of me wanna go tj..i realli haf no freaking idea whether wif my score i can get in..but i wanna go there to do mep..but the other part of me wants to stay in ny!i realli tink life is so amazing..and the influence of pple around yoo..is like wahh..yea..i mean..when i got posted to ny..tho it was damn near..but i was like damn sad..cuz i'm all alone..and i dun like tht feeling..and after skl started..it was worse..cuz i still din noe much pple..but now!one of the reasons i wanna stay in ny is cuz of the frens i made here la!i mean..yea..apart from the fact ny is near my hse..
haiz..i duno..itz jus sucky..like..first had to deal with the fact tht all of us are gna leave tk to this totally new environment..den ok..took me quite sum time to adjust..tho i still miss tk a lot a lot..den now..itz like if i stay in ny..den ok la..but if i m gg tj..i gotta adjust to the new environment..and oso 'leave' those frens i made in nanyang..as much as i dun wanna accept it..itz like a fact tht once i leave nanyang..tho i'll still b frens with the nanyang peeps..but it'll b a different story altogether...we wun feel as comfortable with each other as we are now..it jus like the tk pple..when we were in tk..itz like we're so damn gud frens..but now..we hardly even meet each other..even calls..we dun even call each other tht often!haiz..i jus hate it la..someone jus help me!i am trapped in this irritating phase of my life..i duno wad i shud do!!!!!!!!!!!!
lastly..jus wanna say congrats to those pple who did well for their O's..and for those who din do as well as yoo expected urself to..dun be too affected b this whole thing k?cheer up k?if there's anything can always call me!!!yupp..and to all my tk and nanyang frens..no matter wad happens..yoo'll will still b my frens!and lurve all of ya loads!i will miss all of yoo!!take care my frens!
